| Wednesday, November 17th, 2004 |
| 10:42 am |
hey! im stuck at home cause of the rain....damn! hahaha im become such a bum i want to drop out of school......ahhhh Current Mood: hahahaCurrent Music: kirby baby |
| Wednesday, November 10th, 2004 |
| 2:12 pm |
hey it's kinda fun
Have you: [x] been drunk. [x] smoked pot. [x] kissed a member of the same sex. [ ] rode in a taxi. [x] been dumped. [ ] shoplifted. [ ] been fired. [x] been in love. [ ] been in a fist fight. [x] snuck out of your parent's house. [ ] been arrested. [ ] celebrated new years in times square. [x] went on a blind date. [x] lied to a friend. [x] had a crush on a teacher. [ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans. [ ] been to europe. [x] skipped school. [x] hooked up with a stranger. [ ] thrown up from drinking. [ ] lost your sibling. [x] played 'clue'. [x] had a sleepover party. [x] went ice skating. [ ] dropped x. [x] been cheated on. [ ] had a sweet sixteen. [ ] had a quinceanera. [x] had a car. [x] drove. Do you: [ ] have a bf. [ ] have a gf. [x] feel loved [ ] feel lonely. [x] feel happy. [ ] hate yourself. [ ] think you're attractive. [x] have a dog. [x] have your own room. [x] listen to r&b/ hip hop [x] listen to rap. [x] listen to rock. [ ] listen to soul. [x] listen to techno. [does the Postal Service count?] [ ] listen to reggae. [ ] paint your nails. [x] have more than 1 best friend. [x] get good grades. [ ] play an instrument. [x] have slippers. [ ] wear boxers. [x] wear black eyeliner [x] like the color blue. [x] like the color yellow. [ ] cyber. [ ] claim. [ ] like to read. [ ] like to write. [x] have long hair. [ ] have short hair. [x] have a cell phone. [ ] have a laptop. [ ] have a pager. Are you: [ ] ugly. [ ] pretty. [x] ok. [ ] bored. [x] happy. [x] bilingual. [sign language?] [x] white. [ ] black. [ ] filipino [ ] mexican [ ] asian. [ ] bolivian [ ] short. [ ] other. [ ] tallish. [ ] grounded. [x] sick. [ ] lazy. [x] single. [ ] taken. [ ] looking. [x] not looking. [ ] talking to someone. [ ] IMing someone. [x] scared to die. [ ] sleepy. [ ] annoyed. [ ] on the phone. [x] in your room. [ ] drinking something. [ ] eating something. [x] in your pjs. [x] ticklish. [ ] listening to music. [ ] homophobic. Current Mood: awakeCurrent Music: nothing |
| Tuesday, November 9th, 2004 |
| 7:15 pm |
what up gangstas!
heyyyy!!!! my day was pretty good! started off being late to school as usual-i dont want to break the routine...coach bates was wearing makeup-it was facinating...and precal can suck my titties thats all i have to say about that me and carly took some of ashleys motion sickness/sleeping pills and were extremely happy and felt really good we couldnt stop laughing in reading but i guess it was all in our heads...we were just like ohhh pills after school i took cj home and he left me out on the street to drive my truck around...i looked so gay walking down the street in a hoochie skirt and one shoe...thanks alot cj i could have been raped by that guy who drove by and honked....perv lol no really cj you should kill urself now.... no jk again i love you me and stacy went to mcdonalds after that....dude its seriously catching up to me now!! haha i should stop but no ashley i love you and i hope you feel better!!! well im gonna stop now and attempt/fail doing hmwk! peace nigs Current Mood: as fuckCurrent Music: taking back sunday niggers |
| Sunday, November 7th, 2004 |
| 7:07 am |
wow
so its 7 in the morning and i havnt gone to sleep yet...last night was more than crazy... well i jumped on the trampoline right when i got home from sat's...and i was laying there trying to get all the cats up there with me and i hear "hey!" i was like oh my jesus a cat just talked to me... but no IT WAS MY LOGI-BEAR!!! (oops,sorry logan....only in private...) hahaha so we jumped and logan mastered the amazing back flip that i cant bring myself to do.... ahh someday so then we all hung out-i fell asleep-then anna came over(looking hottttt)-then max and this guy richard came over well we thought it would be a great idea to take some shots of bacardi....yeah sure max took over 12 then drank out of the bottle he was SHIT-FACED...passed out...more details i wont get into but more shit faced than i have ever seen anyone....well i leave him on the floor for awile and then i started wondering cause he would not wake up....richard carried him out to his truck and he couldnt move,walk,talk....they went to seward juntion picked up 'chingy'(he's a pimp) and came back to my house...i was freaking out cause i was sure he had alcohol poisening it was sooo FUCKING scary i was slapping him across the face bitching him out and he couldnt open his eyes...so then they were like take him to the hospital and i was like FUCK that man well around 4 i make him stand up and walk (with the help of the boys cause this kid is heavy) and he FINALLY starts talking....i seriously wanted to kill myself cause i thought i killed him hahahaha then i was like yelling at him "fuck you fuck you you asshole!!!!" freaked him out....lol but i was pissed that he let himself drink that much....anyways so here it is and they JUST left and he was trying to get me to go to church...uhhhh sorry jesus but no...im about to pass out so kids remember that alcohol is a serious thing... hahaha what the f ever omg im delerious anna is sleeping right next to me....mmmm yeah haha i have no idea what im gonna do today! but i wrote too much and noone cares about this anyways hahahaha WHYYYYYYY!!!!!!! (haha stacy and ashley!) whoa i laugh alot i love you allllllllll gnight! Current Mood: relievedCurrent Music: anna's breathing haha |
| Thursday, November 4th, 2004 |
| 5:23 pm |
chea
dude i was totally going to write about my day in here but im so fucking tired that im just going to got to sleep so have a good evening Current Mood: tired as hellCurrent Music: nothing |
| Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004 |
| 11:25 pm |
hmm
me and matt broke up....like i didnt see that comming. i think it's better this way cause after i got to know him i saw him more as a friend anyways well im single yet again- ahh i love it hey logan(logi-bear)you suck! driving home was hell today cause of you and josh blocking both lanes going 45...haha yall are so gay but i luv you buddy! well ill leave you with a little "poem" i wrote.....it doesnt ryme i tried harder than i can say i wanted to be yours only i wanted to make you happy but i wasnt what you wanted when i told you i loved you i meant it i loved you more than life if anything you have to know that now nothing is left but this what a misserable life i only wanted to be loved theres noway to explain my grief he wont know how i feel never could he have seen i would take my life at seventeen never did i realize the emptiness he felt too inside what he hid from me how he couldnt seem weak now its too late to even care life has no meaning for him time wont wait for you you cant be scared to love it may be too late.... Current Mood: frustratedCurrent Music: tv |
| 9:11 pm |
ehh
today was...shitty to say the least although there were some good parts-i turned in my research paper and i never want to see it again-okay maybe only one good thing....i saw cassie in the hall today and she like brushed against me so i go "uh dont touch me" just cause....well im sure you know the situation so then i get a letter from her and i was like wtf this is immature so i got her out of class and we talked in the bathroom for like 15 minutes...i apologized because she hasnt done anything to me...but yes i still love mingo and i always will and seeing him with her hurts so bad- but im taking it step by step and i think everything will be okay-she is actually really nice and im glad we talked-it kills me,but life goes on.... things with matt are good-its weird though cause we act more like brother and sister....uh yeah its scary haha but he's a great guy....a dork..uh yeah but great overall hahaha it cracks me up i went to church today for once it was fun! we played dodgeball and i got the shit beat out of me i loved it!!!! then went and chilled at exxon-i met a guy that kickboxes and he says he wants to teach me! if you really know me you KNOW i love that karate shit ahahhahaha its so annoying right? dude we do the "dance" on fri at the pep rally im gonna look so nerdy!!! YESSSS! ahh that is all for now! good riddence Current Mood: indifferentCurrent Music: death cab |
| Monday, November 1st, 2004 |
| 7:13 pm |
yo niggggggg
hey!!! well shit i havent written in here in forever but im going to start cause i need something to bitch at...no jk but i will cause its fun anyways well today was sorta shitty yeah...but hey i got 5 out of my 7 ar points and i started the book in reading today! hahaha god im such a badass lol yeah so me stacy and cj went to mcdonalds after school and lucky me got pulled over for speeding on the way there and i didnt have insurance w me so i got a citation for that and a warning for going 75 in a 65....funny thing was that on the way there i was thinking to myself that i always speed and i never get pulled over....hmm i think that was a sign-haha but f it i dont care- anyways me and matt are hmmmm i dont even think he likes me honestly but i guess we'll see-damnit you boys!!!! make up your freakin minds!!!! but hes a good guy, either way....god i hate english i cant wait till the stupid research paper is done-coach bates can suck me weener dude!!! hahaha well ill shut up now hmm this was fun!!!! signing off! Current Mood: drainedCurrent Music: tv |
| 7:07 pm |
thinking....
this reminds me of you so bad...oh gosh never expected it to arrive so soon but as the night drifted on it came time to say goodbye turning your back and walking away this cold winter morning is all that remains why couldn't you tell me to my face instead of hiding until i lost faith a heart gets broken as a life gets set free and all i asked was love me years passed, seasons changed and i waited (hate time to say goodbye, hate time) soon after was the pain that would never reach you you've gotten over me but it seems i'll never get over you on me i place this blame regrets praying heaven will open wide and hold you tight as for me, i'll be alright this impact you would have the songs i'd write dreams or you changing your mind anything to pass the time but for now i hope you can hear me as i cry i love you and goodbye Current Mood: crushedCurrent Music: the faint |
| Wednesday, September 15th, 2004 |
| 10:47 am |
ohhhh my
I have the EXAM today!!!!(if you know what im talking about...yeah) me and sarah and playin hookie and so shes gonna go with me....wow and i thought today was gonna be cool...hahahahaha boy was i wrong! anyways that should be an experience ill be sure to let you all in on the details hahahahahahahahahah thats nice huh? anyways i hope you are all having fun at school!! loserrrrs jk i love yall!!! MUAH! |
| Tuesday, September 14th, 2004 |
| 6:50 pm |
tuesday yo
hey!!! today was great! i overslept again and missed cc practice....again...damn-I had a paper due in english and typed that mofo in about 15 min as soon as i got to school...i must have been going over 100 mph tizzight! that was exciting...then i duh duh duh.... saw MATT!!!YAY~! aw gosh he's so awesome...makes my day 10000000 times better every time i get to see him! He's such a sweetheart. I found out something he did yesterday and i really respect him for. What a great guy, im tellin you!!! Gosh, i would be so lucky to have him. but anyways im about to pass out! just wanted to say hi to everyone!!! have a GREAT day! bye bye! Current Mood: falling hard...Current Music: jojo get out!!!! hahaha |
| Sunday, September 12th, 2004 |
| 6:27 pm |
i hate my body
so here i am on the couch and i think im dying. im sick. i probably am getting what ash is getting.....greaaaat what a wonderful way to start a gay week of school! hah oh well! anyways! have a great day everyone!!! guess what....iloveyou! Current Mood: sick |
| 3:49 pm |
im riding on spinners...
hey!!! well this is officially my 2nd journal entry...oh yeah...so anyways last night was great! it was my big ash's bday and we gave her a lil surprise party at mi casa! matt came over at like 7 which was awesome...ah gorgeous! we got to hang out and it was fuuuuuun-i freaking love that boy! for real yo..anyways he left around 12 and he didnt back into a tree...im so proud! haha jk-so i hung out with everyone ash,stace,jackie,chelsea,anna,sarah,nat,C J,josh,nick,brian,ben,ryan,john,joey,aus tin...blah blah...it was cool-my friends are fuckin awesome-but i really miss my ashley and carly-they didnt go...maybe next time!..then christopher chase showed up followed by corey weener,gerret,slim,and jr-kinda killed the moment cause noone really thought they were very nice, but i cant disagree some people are just A LITTLE too outspoken and rude... what can u do! but all in all it was fun! i crashed, chris said i was cussing in my sleep....hmm that really cant be too good,huh? haha i went down to the bridge on the road and skateboarded for awile...something has gotten into me lately and i enjoy it alot-cj needs to show me some of his skizills and maybe i can learn?? that would be bad! school tomorrow damnit! but i get to see matt and it makes my dad better, well im gonna stop now,its getting long! good riddance Current Mood: bouncyCurrent Music: yeah yeah yeahs |
| Saturday, September 11th, 2004 |
| 4:02 am |
i dnt know what im doing
YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! I did it finally! my very first entry and im super excited! now everyone can read about my extremely exciting life! haha.....so its about 4 in the morning and i should be asleep except that i just woke up cause im cool like that. So my phone keeps ringing tonight...now im talking to tucker from the beach-he lives in salado and he's a cool cat lol totally Dude im gonna back up my journal a few days to wednesday night(i think it was) me stace and big ash went to a concert at emos and it was the coolest thing ever-we went crazy and it was so much fun! were gonna do it again so everyone needs to come this next time, except if youre lame....cause lame people suck! so anyways im supposed to be leaving to go to the school for a cc meet in san marcos in about 1 hour but im 'sick' and i need to stay home...gosh im so disappointed! my coach probably hates me hahaha stacy quit vball today-i think its tizzight(cj,lol) cause the coaches didnt like her anyway~well im gonna sign off now! i love u all! oh by the way-ashley's surprise party is tonight/today!!! it should be awesome! HAPPY BDAY BIG ASH!!!! Current Mood: awakeCurrent Music: Eisley |